The way things change so rapidly is amazing to me. It really blows me away when people's minds change about one subject or another with every passing moment.
It friggin' sucks that these little "changes" tear down, what were, or what could have been, amazing relationships. And it especially sucks when this happens twice in one week.
Let me tell you- it doesn't feel good to be avoided; it doesn't feel good to be disregarded, or blown off; it doesn't feel good to feel used, or feel betrayed. Unfortunately, I've made someone I love feel betrayed, and (because I fully believe in Karma) in return, I've come to find out that I was completely and utterly used. There's nothing else to it; you can deny it all you want, but in all reality, that's all I was, was someone who was there when you needed it. Guess what? That's not a "best friend".
Have fun with the next girl you use. I hope she sees you for what you are. Obviously, I was too side-tracked by the cute things you say, and by the way you made me feel to realize your true intentions, like everyone else around me did. You know, the day after you (in essence) told me you used me, I was walking with Jared and Nina, and I asked them, "Why didn't I listen to you guys? Why couldn't I have spared myself all of this friggin' pain and just stayed away when you told me to?" Truth of the matter is, however, as they stated, I "had to find out" on my own.
Too bad this cost us everything, huh? Too bad I wasted everything on you. Too bad I believed you when you told me things, and too effing bad that I couldn't see past your bullsh-t. Too friggin' bad that I couldn't even give up on you because I thought you felt something for me. All I was, was a G-d d-mned piece of a-s when you came back in town, because you knew I'd be the girl to always have feelings for you.
Guess what? I'm not that girl anymore.
F-ck off. Don't talk to me ever again.